So much has been happening in my life and yet I have been writing so little!
At times I wonder, I had started this blog as a keepsake of my thoughts,my ideas and what I feel about the world around.Basically this was a very stealthy way of coaxing my inner self to make itself shown.Yet there are things that I keep doubled up in my heart - but no,I'm going to speak of such things today.
The Husband is having to move again to faraway climes.I absolutely dread this idea of us having to live away from each other even if it be for a short while.There are plans of me joining him shortly, but the exact duration of that 'shortly' part is still unbeknownst to both of us - and that is what irks me the most!Arrgghh - the uncertainties of life!Nevertheless, I know what happens does happen for the good and so I will be happy for him and for us.
But then there are graver situations.A friend is almost on the verge of losing a very close friend of hers to a terminal disease.The saddest part is that everything happened even before things could even sink in.It feels weird and unbelievable but then all I know is that its happening.At times I think it is so foolish that we bicker over things when everything is just as temporary as a mere pack of cards.And it feels selfish to think that I could be wallowing in self-pity when there are people suffering so much more!Life is such a strange jigsaw puzzle - you feel like you are putting things in place but however hard you try,you will have to struggle with that perfect piece which will just fit in and complete the puzzle!
Of much lesser importance is the part where I am haggling with this overworked brain of mine to make a crucial career decision.I have been biting my fingernails,surfing TV channels mindlessly,putting things in the wrong place and mulling over things which are absolutely out of my control!And after I have suffered a week of horrid sleepless nights and the sheep themselves have snoozed off because of the number of times I counted them back and forth - I have decided to give up and flow with the tide.And my decision is still unmade - poor me!
I know that all the way I have sounded like a crackpot, letting off a tirade like a pitiful maniac on the loose - but if you wish to believe me,I have been bungling under stress. But I hope to see things in a positive light and wish to bid the Husband a nice and sweet journey.
I shall be back soon with a nice recipe - but do excuse me for today.The blog and you,my dear blogger friends, have become such a habit,that it takes a lot to just stay away!
See you soon!Stay well and stay safe in the meantime!